All of a sudden, I couldn’t stop crying. For some reason, around the turn of the year, I was waking up in tears. Then, the rest of the day, any little thing would set me off: train delays; a remix of Whitney Houston’s “Greatest Love of All” playing at the gym; showering, weirdly. To say this was uncharacteristic would be an understatement. I am pathologically level—always quick to steady myself. Until now. I was a black hole, future dimming, my weeping the weeping of a collapsing star. What the hell was going on?
“Maybe,” a friend offered, gently, as I wept to her over martinis, “this is perimenopause.”
Well. I should have known. I mean, really, I should have: The good thing, I guess, about living in a technocapitalist surveillance…
