Before rain hits the ground,it’s water. It has no smell.After it hits the ground, it’smemories: my mother,on crutches, moving toward me,in rain, that last dry summer with her,or a man, who later became myhusband, in a tent with me, in thepetrichor air, our bodies becomingchangelings, becoming a new household,becoming new gods, withtheir own new myths. I was taughtthat before the priest raises the hostand wine and says, “This is my body;this is my blood,” and before the altargirl rings the bells, the host is bread,the wine is wine. After the words,the host is God’s body; the wine isGod’s blood. Transubstantiation: meafter him, a baby sucking my nipple,rain ribboning windows. Nowmy six-year-old grandson, in the earlyAugust rainy morning, piano-practices“The Merry Widow Waltz.” BeforeI was a widow, that song wasonly a practice…